joshua

Sometimes my mind goes back to the past.

Here I am being your way of healing, and if I'm looking back, I am also someone's trauma.

I know that isn't who I am anymore.

I know I've changed.

But I also think there's still a part of me that has been trying to make up for the past.

Maybe that's because I never want to be that person again.

I don't ever want to be your trauma.

I don't ever want to watch your heart break into pieces because of me.

I know I can't change what I've done before meeting you.

I know I can't go back.

All I can do is keep becoming someone who loves differently than he did before.

When I look at you, I don't think about changing who you are.

I think about becoming the kind of man who can love you well.

I just want to love you for who you are.